Cherishing the Busy Days

Wow, last night was an amazingly relaxing evening with Charles, we watched movies and just enjoyed each others company... I am just so thankful for this man in my life. He is strong and sometimes a brute and maybe even a pain in the ass, but he is loved. I have heard God brings people into your life for a purpose... I believe it. I really do. Charles, loves to complain and often complains about my messy ways.... My mother would to be laughing... I think in some other life, they must have known each other. I am in fact pretty sure that they compared notes. I am so stubborn about it and yet... I love the level of cleanliness my house is in and the organization of my life. You see, although we argue... I know that there is nothing that Charles won't do for me... or Aiden. Aiden senses it too. He loves Charles. I watch them together and I am amazed that Aiden has been so welcoming of Charles in his life. I think that I have realized in the last few days that nobody will ever be as perfect as I want them to be... but if they can accept me...love me and my son then we can be an amazingly strong team. Charles is that person who I know will never leave... in fact funny enough he refuses too... lol.. I love him for that. He will not ever let me walk out on myself... and he holds Aiden to a standard that will make him the exemplary man I know he can be. Today has been so busy, Aiden came this am from his dad's just on time to leave for Big Bunch a group though Big Brother's and Sisters. Then home Just on time to to a birthday. I had to go take a Money Mart loan, but I am thankful that Money Mart has such a service, even if it is costly. When I arrived to pick Aiden up he was running and playing and getting along with all of the other little boys. I couldn't help but remember a time where I was afraid to take him out worried about what other people would think of his behavior. I am grateful that those days are behind us but I cringe when I think about how I worried and was so focused on fixing our problems, and yet truly focused on hiding it. Funny, I could careless what people think now, however, I still have to remind myself. I am thankful, for my gradual gain in confidence and hope that it serves as an example to Aiden. So much has changed, we have so many family supports. We have found many supports in the Eastminister Church. I wonder is the Minister, Sarah knew how special it was that she remembered Aiden after only our second visit to the church. It was amazing. Aiden had drawn a picture of the church and put it in the offering plate, my first instinct was to stop him, but I stopped myself. I felt like it was his way of giving something; I as well felt that I needed to stop worrying, I mean what was the harm. I was touched that Sarah identified him. It was sweet. I am thankful that I did a little painting today and that I laid in bed with Aiden a little tonight and did some meditational back rubbing. I can't believe how big he has gotten, how smart, sweet and funny. I am thankful, thatI have this time to write... I really do feel like this is helpful and enlightening and I am grateful for the chance to be on the journey.